About me
I was born a Jew in Jerusalem in 1978 to a highly academic family with an impressive lineage of Jerusalem-based Mekubalim (practitioners of Kabala) spanning over 10 generations.
On my mother's side, I am a descendant of the Rabbi from Liadi, the founder of the Bait Chabad Hasidic sect.
From an early age, I felt drawn to the Occult because I strongly sensed that there must be more to the human experience than the mechanistic narrative society offered and the subconscious patterns it indoctrinated.
I attribute this to my birth circumstances (Sanskrit Karam) and the spiritual seed that runs deep within my family.
Resenting that matrix-like, yet plainly visible, simpleton mindset, I sought to free myself from its hidden shackles that confined me and from the constraints imposed by others, through the cultivation of a strong sense of self-empowerment and a vivid, independent mind.
My first path was domination of my physical body and fortification of my will through martial arts, which I started at 10. My primary discipline was Shotokan Karate-Do, but I also practice Israeli Krav Maga, Tai Chi Chuan (24-Simplified Form of Young Style), and capoeira.
Enrolling at age 19 in a correspondence course offered by the mystery school Servant of the Light, a right-hand path or daylight path of Occult science. At that stage of my journey, I was just taking my first steps into that world. Yet, I had already prepared myself by doing my own research into Jewish mysticism and gnostic revelation at 15, and even before I had been heavily influenced by the books “The Power of the Subconscious” and “The Teaching of Don Juan” as early as age 11.
At around age 22, five-years into the program and after three years of military service, I realized the course had given me enough, and I parted ways with the S.O.L. This happened just past the midpoint of my training, which was written by the famous occultist Walter Ernest Butler, a student of Dion Fortune.
During my early twenties, I gained basic skills such as pathworking, active meditation, Zen-Chen meditation, and a good introduction to magic and Christian-Jewish mysticism, a basic understanding of group rituals, and was initiated into an order named the Order of the Sevenfold Star in NYC.
As a military veteran and a black belt in Karate, I began seeking a more demanding and empowering discipline. At that stage of my life, I strived to enhance my astral and mental strength, fortify my will, and move beyond the mainstream matrix into something extraordinary.
My quest for that kind of practice began in 2002, and after journeying, encountering, and practicing various new-age practices, including several approaches to healing. I landed in India at the Kumbh Mela, a vast and ancient spiritual gathering (2006, Allahabad), which led me to find a Nepali guru named Balak Giri, originally from Nepal, and to Shivaism, a form of Hindu mysticism. Marking a pivotal shift in focus from Western occult science and assorted New Age practices to hardcore old school mystical practices. Subsequently, I took on the core practices on the path of Lord Shiva at the 'Juna Akhara' semi-military school of mystics—a renowned monastic order—where I was mentored and trained to become a Naga Baba Sadhu.
Sadhus (practitioners) emphasize self-empowerment and the individual's journey toward liberation (Moksha, ultimate freedom), while renouncing the material world and the shackles of society.
The training involved hours of rigorous daily practice of Joga, which is very different from Hata or any other form of yoga. It included, among other things, demanding meditation, mantras, and plenty of fire worship done through keeping a Dhuni, a sacred bonfire.
I was also trained in basic Hindu rituals, including Aarti, Puja, and the use of various consecrated tools, sacred objects, and statues. After eight years of rigorous practice, I became one of the few Westerners to attain the status of a Sadhu (an accomplished practitioner). I received a sacred Sanskrit name and was invited to take on vows of celibacy and to be admitted into the Akhara. By then, I was married (since 2004) and had a daughter. Since joining Akhara, one must engage in extreme renunciation and rejection of the mundane world. And with my family in mind, I had to reject the offer and move on.
It was 2013-2014, and I was about 36 years old.
I still had some things to accomplish in India and came back twice, continuing my journey into early 2015.
My second daughter was born in 2015, and I decided to end my journey in India and around the world to settle down in Helsinki and take care of my wife and daughters.
Even though accomplishing my journey in India brought valuable insights and satisfied my initial cravings for personal empowerment, I ultimately realized my destination was not one of renunciation. Instead, feeling enriched by the experience, I decided to return to Western Mysticism and Magic, bringing forward all I had learned.
Guided by the Egyptian deity Anubis (lord of the dead), I enrolled at the Helios School of Esoteric Science (2019). As a daughter school of the S.O.L., a modern-day Western mystery school. It was a continuation and deepening of the course I had taken at the beginning of my quest, this time by personal online mentorship with the headmaster, and graduated from the three-year program ‘Path of the Adept’ first-degree course in under a year.
After graduating from Helios, the school's headmaster deemed my approach 'too dark,' and we parted ways.
Surprisingly, it was relieving. Anubis told me to complete the course, but both Set (lord of chaos and war) and Anubis made it clear that I should not pursue further formal training there or at any of the affiliated schools.
With skills and powers accumulated from various traditions, teachers, and mentors, I went on to explore Egyptian magic, which is a fascinating system with a diverse pantheon. This connection grew tighter and lasted for six years. It also marked a shift in my spiritual practice and perspective back to the ancient world, western magic, and western mysticism.
The subjects of the 'Path of the Adept' and my daily practices included various occult topics and practices such as:
Keeping a dream journal for dream interpretation.
Pathworking (fixed visualization journey through Occult landscapes).
Daily rituals: LBRP (Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram), Qabalistic Cross, and the Middle Pillar exercise. These are foundational practices in the RHP of Western magic.
Tarot: Interpretation, readings, and meanings, and a deeper study of the embedded symbolism, Divination (seeking guidance and communication), Pathworking (using tarot as a gateway).
I learned to conduct effective solitary magic rituals, including those with Archangels, Elemental kings, Tarot magic, and the invocation of GodForms and Archetypes.
Kabbalah: Knowledge and practical meditation as well as pathworking with the tree of life(dayside). Constructing and engraving it as a mental glyph to the auric field and psych. Exploring all 22 paths with the aid of the greater Archana, and eventually reforming it until it formed the MarKaBa, an indestructible vessel of the Holy Guardian angel, and the seat of the divine spark.
Also:
The four kabalistic worlds (levels of spiritual reality).
The occult aspect of the Hebrew alphabet, which is my mother tongue, is considered to hold deeper occult meanings.
Astrological attributions (connecting symbolic meanings from Tarot cards and astrological signs).
Having advanced through the layers, Sefirot, and 22 paths of the Tree of Life (dayside), I arrived at the Sefira of Da’at and the brink of the greater Abyss, where the dark and light sides of the Tree converge.
I consider my formal training in the Right-hand path and my attainment of the higher Sefirot of the tree to be an important part of my magical training.
Occult Psychology: knowledge and practice of and with Archetypes for self-improvement and to deepen my understanding of the composition of my psyche.
In addition, and independently of the Helius school, I became an NLP master practitioner and a certified life coach, and I added REBT and CBT to my list.
I am a certified ThetaHealer and a Western Tantra practitioner through TLC (Tantric Life Coaching), and also completed Level 1 of ISTA.
At the beginning of 2020, I returned from seven years in Helsinki and settled in Tel Aviv. Completed the journey to Keter (the topmost Sefira of the Tree of Life) and turned to the nightside and Left Hand Path.
There I was, standing at a unique threshold, ready to pursue self-mastery through the nightside of the tree (the Tree of Death), the Qlipoth worlds (shells), and aligning with demons, fallen angels, and other infernal beings, marking a whole new chapter in my spiritual evolution.
Completing the journey to Keter (the topmost Sefira of the Tree of Life), I continued to the nightside and Left Hand Path.
It was not entirely new to me, as in India I had the opportunity to encounter and practice Agora, the Hindu equivalent of the LHP, alongside Naga Baba’s Shivaism, which is neither dark nor light.
I did the 12-week preliminary project for The Temple of Ascending Flame, whose principal patrons are Lucifer and Lilith, and was initiated into the current of Lilith and Lucifer by the high priestess of the temple, Ashanath Mason, becoming a member and a priest of the temple.
The ToAF works within the current of the Draconian tradition, prioritizes independence, and provides a broad spectrum of practical projects and knowledge of various infernal and Qliphotic spirits. It allows and encourages all forms of occult work.
Ashanath Mason has significantly advanced the Draconian LHP tradition through her Temple work, personal mentoring, and numerous books.
I worked with ToAF on open and inner temple projects for 2.5 years. My primary focus was the Tree of Death (nightside), a symbolic map of the Qliphotic realms, which are the shadow aspects of the Sefirot of the Tree of Life (dayside), connected by 22 paths known as the tunnels of Set, which are deeply hidden pathways. I also worked with various demonic entities, fallen angels, and other supernatural beings from multiple occult traditions.
In mid-2022, I enrolled in the Daementorship coaching program by Adam Nox, a 16-month intensive LHP program that offers broad-spectrum Esoteric life coaching and Occult practices within the Draconian tradition.
The curriculum is by far too broad and extensive to summarize; it touches on subjects such as:
Business development and DevOps
Social media/Social influencing
Computer Languages and Programming
Photography and Visual editing
Biohacking
Runic magic
The energetic application of breathwork and lavido.
Occult psychology.
Occult use of Astrology.
Dark NLP and persuasion techniques.
Shadow work.
LHP Rituals.
The Qliphotic world, demons, goetia, and the fallen.
The Qlipothic Tree.
Social dominance and networking.
Completed a 30-day self-practice course by Tony Robbins.
And all that alongside plenty of daily intensive occult work, and weekly ritualistic sessions through personal mentoring.
He literally poured out treasure troves of knowledge and demanded total immersion and self-discipline.
At that time, I got to explore my shadow like never before and deepen my understanding through Robert Moor's work (Lover, King, Magician, Warrior), existential kinks, attachment wounds, and other forms of Deep psychology relevant to the occult.
Also, by the end of Daementorship, I completed Adam Nox's extensive online course 'Sacred Science'.
In summary, the occult is the pillar of my life—a lifelong path of self-empowerment, individuality, freedom, and mastery of my self, shadow, and reality.
From my experience, deep psychotherapy, self-development, and shadow work are vital to progress and success in magical practices, business, romance, and every other aspect of life.
The convergence of these lifelong practices ultimately led me to the draconian path of the nightside and the Qlipoth realm. Drawn further into deeper, darker practices—BDSM, demonology, sorcery, and necromancy—I found myself transformed repeatedly, unfolding and opening a deeper, more transformative stage in my journey.
Now, some fun facts about me:
I completed two of four years of an academic degree in psychonurobiology, a double degree in Biology and psychology (2001-2002).
Had a cognitive meltdown and lost my ability to study, then traveled to Spain, Málaga, where I met my ex-wife, hoping it would pass on its own(it didn’t).
Tried to find myself again in Israel, gave up, and moved to NYC, where I lived and worked for half a year illegally on a tourist visa in a parlour spa as a masseur (early 2004).
Volunteered in a Zen resort in Greece, Taos, for two and a half months for Zen tuition, then lived for a few months in Barcelona, where I proposed marriage to my Ex-wife.
We got married in Finland and adopted a hippy, nomadic lifestyle, traveling around the world (2004 to 2008), with nothing more than a backpack and a tent.
My older daughter was born in late 2005 and has been traveling with us.
Lived for six years in Israel (2008-2014), then moved to Finland for another six years (2014-2020)
Throughout 2009-2016, I’ve spent half the year with them and the other half in India and around Europe.
Total time in India: 3.5-4 years.
When my second daughter was born in 2015, I traveled one last time to India, and was done with my path as a sahdu and nomad.
Got divorced in Finland in 2017 and lived in Berlin for half a year.
Got back together with my Ex-wife (kind of) to live close to my daughters.
In 2020, we all moved to Tel Aviv, Israel, and I found the treatment I had been seeking since 2002 and got my brain back to a normal cognitive level.
I’m also a DJ and electronic music producer, an absolute fanatic about Dark Psytrance, Paycor, and high-tech, and often go to parties and travel to festivals around Europe.
Got a Kinki streak and enjoy both Western Tantra, BDSM practices, and kinki sex.
A survivor of the 7/10/2023 Nova festival massacre.
Taking ice baths in the summer, and I am an apt and devoted psychonaut, which is the research of the psych(mind) through psychedelics and altered state of consciousness by inducing Ancestral medicines.
Infernal blessing,
Nightsider