The three trials of the ego - II Power

Can you handle power?

Only when fear is embraced, and doubts about the existence of forces beyond yours are cleared away, can you submit yourself to something bigger?

You are facing the dangers of spiritual Ego through ego inflation.

You calmed and set your mundane ego back in its rightful place, maintaining your everyday affairs and routine without fear of the unknown. It is actually exciting to have chaos in your life.

The obstacle to being more than you were is gone. Old patterns are easier to get clear of, and you can face greater challenges.

You admit that there is more to reality than you were conditioned to believe and that there are forces more significant than yourself at play.

You are good at temple work and can decently work with the nightside forces, even to begin to understand their way of interaction and guidance.

At first, the dark current can be overwhelming, but you are somewhat aligned by now, which is enough to conduct power.

The rush of it all is more than thrilling; something concerning is directly related to your growing ability to draw on it.

You are no longer a cattle; the power of your mind to manifest the objects of your desire through a personal will is now a reality.

At this point, ironically, you achieved some sovereignty and responsibility, and the challenges become tougher to deal with; some may be disappointed because the forces of the night no longer bestow their gifts so freely.

Considering your new manifestation abilities, why would they? You are developing through trails not through being pumpered

Manifestation through personal effort requires cultivating power and a stronger will. Maintaining both your life and personal and magical growth also requires power and investments. You do the math.

Your will is like a ray from a flashlight; spreading it out will weaken the effect, focusing it, and you get a laser-like result.

The greater the battery's charge and durability, the greater the power of the ray and the longer it can be maintained.

A focused mind saves manifestation power; meditate! Cultivate power through sexual tantric exercise and physical discipline.

Learn to set firm boundaries and take hold of your desire to prevent it from leaking.

Harness the Horde's power and feed yourself with the power of the Qlipohoth and black flame. Regularly practice rituals to fortify your body and mind to withstand the harsh forces of chaos.

Ask the nightside spirits for guidance and empowerment, and practice LBM (Lesser Black magic) to get what you desire through convincing and acting rather than through elaborate rituals.

Training your personal will and ability to manifest your goals without the use of spirits and rituals is very effective. It is mostly the small things you do with LBM in everyday life that get you what you desire.

Neuro-linguistic programming and life coaching technologies are effective for achieving goals and turning people toward your side.

Learn to be a good manipulator, set clear goals, and use your crafted personal power to make things happen effectively.

But now the second ego has kicked in, your spiritual ego of self-importance.

It wants to take the helm by making you believe that now you are something big, able to work with dark spirits and get what you crave and desire easily. 

You can use people, and that is dangerous for the ego; when fear is gone, you might get reckless and arrogant, burning bridges and making enemies.

Why would you then need to work so hard to advance further? Are you not working with higher forces now? Are you not special? Superior? Got what you want in the physical and social.

On top of that, everybody around you is still ignorant cattle, and as the one-eyed man, you will feel deeply disturbed by them, but also by that superior.

As promised, your consciousness expands and awakens; you gain power; you can shift and alter your consciousness at will; and you can manifest objects of desire with the power of your personality and mind.

Being a sorcerer might even become a profession, conducting ceremonies for a fee, providing tarot readings, and other divination services, you can conveniently kill two birds with one stone.

You might gather followers impressed by your show and persona, which may lead you to feel all mighty and aloof.

Lucky you; it's the LHP; there are no inhibitions and quick gains.

It is all child's play. You are a lap dog in the realm of the nightside, begging, craving for power, an unreliable addict, useless.

Fun facts about dark vampires!

Did you know that when an LHP-oriented manager fires an employee, he can do it in a way that will break the poor guy's confidence in himself and ravage it for its leaking power?

Or, you can crush people with your new skills and gain quick power for your persona.

Good old-fashioned corporate style, quick gains in power.

Nothing is true, and all is permitted; there is no morality here. Just what is the long-term gain in that? There is a real risk of entrapment with this approach, and there are some guidelines you should understand to make it easier for you.

All along, while you were preoccupied with short-term gain, the ego dug deeper, making you an important professional, gaining admirers, and putting you on a pedestal while enflating your self-importance and self-image.

You are the one-eyed man in the land of the blind, free of many inhibitions and with the power to shape your life to a certain extent.

On the other hand, you are an insecure, drained magician begging the darkness for more, an addict of quick fixes through vampirism, drugs, or fame.

This building, you towered as your new person, is like a spark of fire that needs constant gratification and validation.

Regular meditation will help you clarify and focus your mind, but it is time for more shadow work.

What is motivating you? Long-term strategy or impulses created by desire and lust?

Can you contain lust and desire somaticaly without acting on them impulsively?

NLP can help you learn a good set of Lesser Black Magick skills.

Life coaching can help you become more confident, goal-oriented, and successful.

Shadow work facilitates a greater power than both, the power to contain yourself rather than inhibit. The power to learn your desires and lust, also greed, as guides rather than weapons to discharge. 

Will you make it?

You still have to deal with the second ego issue, but at least you're back behind the wheel as a powerful, strong-willed magician and a mature person who can handle lower impulses and transmute them into energy.

The second ego is being dealt with now.

Your communication channels are open; you commune and recognise the spirits of the nightside, and they have become an integral part of your reality and daily life, and now, through your contained and somaticaly freely felt cravings, even longings, they guide.

You talk to them often, getting subtle somatic messages, and act on them to get what you want. And progress

Will you listen and act when they ask you for something, or will you refuse to see them as just a source rather than allies?

You are fearless and powerful enough to do whatever you want; it is entirely up to you to act.

Have you decided to become a bully? Will you swap one dogmatic religion for another or use Occam's razor to see that the gods of the nightside are more than just wish-fulfillment instruments?

Will you go out of your way on a whim to do something for them? Will you approach a stranger on the street on a whim and tell him something unusual because they direct you to do so, even at the price of feeling ridiculous or embarrassed?

It is easy and natural to do when you desire something for yourself.

Will you buy some insignificant nonsense on their recommendation because they want you to be one of those customers they decided to send for that shopkeeper to prove that his wish for more cash flow can be granted? Will you pitch in for more extraordinary things?

Do you have it in you to sometimes be their errand boy in this reality?

One trivial task for them, and as ridiculous as it may feel, one giant leap of understanding for you.

Your first step is to play a part in a system beyond your comprehension as part of a more extraordinary set of events.

It is not as simple as it sounds; your second ego will disagree, and you sometimes feel ridiculous, cheated, and fooled.

But those are all somatic feelings you can overcome, and the social discomfort is just because you feel so important.

Are you disciplined enough to submit the second Ego to do the work of the nightside even when the understanding of it is beyond you?

Will you be able to overcome the second ego, or are you so important and full of yourself that you refuse to repay all the good they did for you, all the guidance and empowerment?

Do you want to learn how the system works and find your place in it?

If you fail to repay in kind for the gifts you received and all the investment they made, that will be your downfall, and you will end up as a dead en as an inflated buffoon, self made autority with the wrong paradigm, even a lonely bastard.

Does Lilith love you and you alone? Are you a satan prodigy? really that important to the powers of the nightside?

Because it is a semi-military-structured empire with hordes of legions and an intricate logistical system, everyone has their assigned roll and yours is to be a mediator between the worlds.

Some are useful as messengers, promoters, emissaries, backstage workers, auteurs, mentors, temple keepers...etc.; whoever you are, there is a fitting place for you.

Can you break through the Jahovic continuum, the social matrix, and make yourself a tool to complete the task?

Fear is nothing to handle compared to the self-importance that comes with power.

This is the trial of the spiritual ego. The surest way to become an empty buffoon is to perpetually try to convince the world that you are the most powerful, knowledgeable, and successful person.

Be wise!

Ask them for it, expect it to happen, be one step ahead of your second ego, and settle into the system.

Ask them about it, how can you be of greater use, and with that, to slowly learn and understand the greater picture of the nightside.

Some dark souls are sleepers, born of darkness, and need to be reached physically and pushed a little; they have been surrounded by the forces of Jehovah from birth to prevent them from opening up, and need someone to reach

Do you believe in reincarnation? Can you get off that high horse of self-importance and, as advanced as you may think, recognize and respect a fellow nightsider even if it looks like cattle to you?

Staying full of self-importance, one of those days, you will make a mistake, and that will cause an avalanche; everything will tumble down as it is a tower founded on the wrong foundations.

You will vamp, hex, put down, or mislead people because you are too important and knowledgeable, and they are ignorant, but one of these days it will come through, and then what?

The Internet has made it easy to become an authority, too many out there making a profit, but that is all a joke if you can’t keep yourself in check.

The nightsiders invested in you; beware of becoming a disgrace, a liability, and bad publicity that will result in your demise.

It is your wake-up call.

The second time around will be a trap, predetermined by your slackness and short-sightedness.

"To err is human, to understand and learn from it divine."

If you can get your spiritual ego contained, you'll find that there's a bigger spiritual system than you, and your power is nothing compared to the power and benefits of the position in that system.

Congratulations!

With that,  congratulations, you learned to handle power and are wise enough to avoid self-importance, the trap of the second ego.

This is true maturation on the path.

But now comes the third obstacle, the third enemy.

Can you handle clarity?