The three trials of the ego - II Power
Updated: Oct 14, 2020
Can you handle power?
Only when fear is embraced, and doubts about the existence of forces beyond your own lesser existence cleared off, can you submit yourself to something bigger.
You depleted and settled your mundane Ego back to its rightful place, maintaining your everyday affairs and routine life.
The obstacle to be more than you were is gone.
You admit that there is more to reality than you were conditioned to believe and that there are forces more significant than you at play.
You are proficient at temple work and can relatively efficiently work with the forces of the nightside.
At first, the dark current can be overwhelming, but you are somewhat aligned by now, which is enough to conduct power.
Congratulations! you are an addict, and the craving grows(cause once you go black).
The rush of it all is more than thrilling, and something concerning is happening in direct relation to your growing ability to draw on it.
The more you quench, the less is manifesting.
The reason is twofold:
You are no longer a cattle; the power of your mind to manifest the objects of desire through a personal will is now a reality.
To some, it may come as a disappointment as the forces of the nightside no longer bestow their gifts so loosely.
Considering your new manifestation abilities, why would they?
Rewrite and renew your pacts accordingly.
Manifestation through personal will requires power. Spiritual growth also requires power (if you don't eat, you won't grow) figure the math.
Your will is like a ray coming out of a flashlight; spreading it out will weaken the effect, focus it, and you get a laser-like result.
The stronger the battery charge and durability, the ray’s power, and how long you can maintain it.
A focused mind saves manifestation power.
Hord power and feed yourself regularly to fortify your body of darkness.
Ask the nightside forces for power, and practice LBM (Lesser Black magic) to get that which you desire and cut on power expenses.
Neuro-Linguistic Programming and life coaching technology work great.
Learn to be an excellent manipulator, goal-oriented, and how to manifest by the power of your mind efficiently.
Guess what? You're still fucked.
The second Ego already kicked in, your spiritual Ego of self-importance.
It wants to take the helms by making you believe that now you are something big, able to work with dark spirits, and get what you crave for.
Why would you then need to work so hard for it? Are you now not working with higher forces? Are you not special? Superior?
Get your shit together, make the dishes, and vacuum the house.
Maintaining both your mundane and spiritual life is pulling double weight.
On top of that, everybody around you is ignorant dumb fuck cattle, and as the one eye man, you will feel deeply disturbed with them.
As promised, your consciousness expands, awakens, you grow in power, you shift and alter your consciousness at will and manifest objects of desire through the power of your mind.
Being a sorcerer might even become a profession, conducting ceremonies for a fee, providing Tarot reading, and other divination services, you can conveniently kill two birds in one stone.
You might even gather some followers impressed by your show and feel all mighty and aloof.
All you need is to gain power and wretched miserable you; it’s the LHP; there are no inhibitions and many quick gains.
Animal sacrifice, Astral vampirism, Etheric itching, Social vampirism, Drugs, inflicting pain and enjoying it...etc.
It is all a child play. You are a lap dog in the realm of the nightside, begging, craving for power, an unreliable addict, useless.
Fun facts of practical vampirism!
Did you know that when an LHP oriented manager fires an employee, he can do it in such a way that will break the poor guy's confidence in himself and ravish on it for
good old fashion corporate style quick power gain.
No different than your average school bully from the sports team sucking the life out of those nerd boys for Power and Sex!
Being a seriously invested sports fan means that when your home team loses a match, you lose power—the other side gains.
While you were occupied with quick gain or worse! Putting yourself out there as a professional, gathering admirers, and placing yourself on a pedestal, the spiritual Ego dug itself deeper.
You are swinging between: “being a human amongst cattle, the one-eyed man in the land of the blind, free of so many inhibitions with the power to bend reality according to your will.”
“To an insecure drained lap dog hiddenly begging the darkness for power, an addict of quick power gain through vampirism, drugs or worse, fame.”
You could have had it all if you just listened.
Meditate regularly to clear and focus your mind.
Acquire a good set of Lesser Black Magick skills through NLP.
Go through life coaching to become more confident, goal-oriented, and a high achiever.
Use those skills to acquire mundane desires and conserve your power.
Increase your power hoarding capacity and become a better conduit through Yoga, Qi gong, or Tantra.
Can you make it? Congratulations, you are a high-functioning addict, which is the best you can hope for and require to achieve.
You still have the second Ego problem to sort out, but at least you're back behind the steering wheel as a powerful and strong-willed magician.
Settling the second Ego in place.
The communication channels are open; you know the nightside’s spirits to be real, and more than that, they become an integral part of your perception of reality and daily life.
You can hear them in your thoughts, receive the intuitive transmission, and act on those hunches.
When it comes to the fulfillment of your desires, you listen and act.
Will you listen and act when they desire something of you?
After all, if it is not your blood, incense, soul, or any other such mundane sacrifice they are after, it is your ability to act.
Fear is no longer a motivator, which is not that good for you.
You are fearless and powerful enough to “Do as you will” leaving it entirely up to you to act for them.
What are you going to do with yourself now, lap dog?
Become a bully? A buffoon? exchange one dogmatic religion for another or will you instead use your Occam razor (simple deduction) to see that the Gods of the nightside are more than your wish-fulfilling instruments.
You will go out of your way on a whim for more power, Money, and Sex.
Will you go out of your way on a whim to do something for them? Will you approach a stranger in the street on a whim and tell him something unusual because you were meant to do so by their thoughts?
After all, it is all good and fair when you crave or desire something for yourself.
You can enter a random store on their lead even though you never thought about entering it before to find that ‘out of print’ book you so wanted is lying there on the shelf.
As you are, a lap dog is already second nature for you to act by their lead to get what you desire.
Will you buy some unimportant shit on their lead because they want you to be one of those customers they decided to send for that shop keeper just to make a point that his wish for more cash flow can be granted?
Not that they need you for it, but you can pitch in.
Do you have it in you to be an errand boy for them?
One trivial task for them, and as ridiculous as it may feel, one giant leap of understanding for you.
Congratulations! you have taken your first step to become a bolt in a system beyond your comprehension, a shadow worker, part of the greater plan.
It is not as simple as it sounds; your second Ego will disagree with that; you will feel ridiculous, sometimes cheated other times a fool.
Can you shop some shit you just feel like buying, cross the street and give it to a stranger on a lead?
They know what ticks you; they know that you recognize their thoughts from yours. After all, when it comes to your desire, you listen and act.
Can you pick a set of dirty pants from the street because your thoughts, which are theirs, are leading you to?
Can you carry it around and drop it elsewhere, never knowing why?
Are you brutally honest enough to become an errand boy?
Are you disciplined enough to submit the second Ego to do the work of the nightside?
Will you overcome the Second Ego, or are you that important and full of yourself that you are in a position to refuse?
What will you gain?
The knowledge of how the system works and a place in it.
Unfortunately for you, fear is no longer a motivator, and most of those objects of desire you achieve lately are through your power, will, and intuition.
If you fail to pay back in action for the gifts you received and all that investment made, that will be your eventual downfall, ending as an empty bully or worse, an inflated buffoon.
“But, my deal was made with that low level familiar, and Lucifer/Azazel/Satan is my patron God.”
Who do you think is more critical to Lucifer? You? or the lowest ranking familiar?
Who is in the Legions of the night and who is an ungrateful lap dog.
Does Lilith love you and you only? Are you as necessary for the forces of the night as one of their own?
This is not some American comic story where villains work against each other in a race for dominancy. It is a military-based empire with hordes of Legions, an intricate logistical system.
Some are useful as messengers, some as promoters, emissaries, backstage workers, auteurs, mentors, temple keepers...etc.; whoever you are, there is a fitting place for you as well.
Lucifer is not your savior, Lilith is not your mother, and Satan is not your friend.
Can you break through the Jahovic continuum, the social matrix, and make yourself a fool to get a task done?
Fear is nothing to handle compared to the self-importance that comes with power.
This is the trial of the spiritual Ego. The way out of becoming a buffoon perpetually trying to convince the world that you are the most powerful sorcerer around.
Ask them for it, expect it to happen, be one step ahead of your second Ego.
Settle the second Ego into the system.
Willful cooperation is what they want and need of you, acting agents in the mundane carrying dirty pants around, shopping unnecessary shit, and handing it over to strangers.
Ask them about it.
Some dark souls are sleepers, born of darkness, and need to be reached in the physical as they have been surrounded by the forces of Jehovah from birth to prevent them from opening up.
Do you believe in reincarnation? Can you get off that high horse of self-importance and as advanced as you may think you are, recognize and respect a superior fellow nightsider even if it looks like cattle?
Being full of self-importance, one of those days, you will make a mistake.
You will vamp, hex, put down, or worse, mislead a sleeper because you are too important and knowledgeable in the eyes of the cowed to say, “I don’t know.”
The Internet made it so easy to become a professional, an authority; all it takes is one small slip.
The nightsiders invested in you, but you have become a disgrace, liability, bad publicity.
Powerful sorcerer, they will kick you as the lapdog you are.
Not as some sort of punishment, It is your wake up call.
Even after that one time only wake-up call, they will be patient until they won't.
The second time will be a trap, predetermined, but by your slackness and short-sightedness.
“To err is human, to understand and learn from it divine.”
They are considerate
Your cooperation is required, and as long as you fall in line and operate from within the Jahovic continuum, there is some value in you.
What is required of you is to act on their behalf from within.
If you can subjugate your spiritual ego, realizing there is a spiritual system grander than you and be useful for that system.
You'll discover that all that personal power is nothing compared to the power and benefits that come with the position.
You will have become fearless, Powerful, and knowledgeable.
You can handle power and wise enough to avoid the trap of the second Ego.
Can you handle clarity?